My face
Tears slick
Heart twisted
Lovely
Remember me
Especially
Forgive
Thousands
Show me
Admit
Betrayed
Hurtful ways
Effort belonging
Empty longing
From you
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The feelings are all somewhere
Reasons undefined
You sit there quietly
In the back of my mind
Hold close the reasons why
I don’t talk to you
I can’t even say it
Still I find it true
I love everyday
Every reason more and more
Some day I will define
The reason I don’t talk to you anymore
Subtle reminders of the past
A lost note long played
Words don’t describe
The bond we’ve made
I am sorry. That is what I want to say. I am so sorry. And although things could have happened differently, I knew better the whole time. Just shoved it down and pretended like it wasn’t real. Blamed it on your inconsistency. But that was just an excuse. A way to vent my frustration and denial and loneliness.
I know I’m ready. I turned enough in my brain. I’ve forced myself to say it out loud. But it’s still too hard to accept. That I did that. To you.